I think there’s something wrong with me. Something terribly wrong and I’m absolutely afraid of it. I have no idea what it is, truly I don’t.
Lately, I haven’t been Myself. I’m acting really different and I don’t think it’s a good thing. To others, I look and act exactly the same but… deep down I know that something is not right, not the fact that I act different with and without people because even when I’m alone, I don’t behave like this. I started acting differently, I have been feeling terrible, I have been thinking way too much. I can’t control my emotions, it’s like everything overwhelms me. Feeling happy, sad, guilt, irritated and angry. I don’t know how and what I’m supposed to feel. I’m so confused? I get irritated by every single minor thing, is this normal?
I’m a mess. I’m fucked up. Like major fucked up.
God, just what is wrong with me? I am trying to keep myself together yet it seems like I’m losing myself even more. I don’t want to be a goner.